It seems that I'm the wrong kind of artist for this place. That is, if you really want to call me an artist.

It's been roughly a year and a bit since I made the decision to stop having a portfolio of any kind hosted on this site for a simple reason: I'm not an artist. Not by my terms. God, I wish I was. I wish I could draw like some of you can. I wish I could take breathtaking and emotive photography like some of you can. I wish I could paint like alot of you can. My God, how I wish I could illustrate well. But I can't. And since deviantART doesn't have a "comments only" sort of account, I've kinda been carrying this thing around. This account with no art, and you can probably count how many times I've been asked why.

But, in my opinion, I think I can make a pretty good film.

I go to film school, and I've been gradually getting to a point where I'm churning out work that I'm genuinely proud of. I really am. And would love to hear critiques about. But that's not very feasable on a site like deviantART. Alas.

So what do I do here instead? Not much of anything, to tell you the truth. I used to really get a kick out of commenting on people's work, but not so much anymore. I used to really like getting to know some of the people here, people from all over the world, but time and time again I just found myself being disappointed with the relationships I wound up with here. It all felt very non-comittal, and who knows, that could be just me expecting more than I should be. But that's kinda how it worked out.

So, to tell you the truth, I don't know why I'm submitting this. Why right now, of all times. Maybe to explain that I'm honestly more than I make myself out to be here on deivantART, and I'm not sure if that's something I regret or not.

I don't know. You tell me.